not all those who wander are lost.

I miss the days when I had the urge to write. I looked through a bunch of my old notebooks today, looking for some poems that might be good (turns out there were only two, the rest were... super depressing or, well super depressing), and I realized I wrote a lot in high school.

Granted, I was well... super depressed and had a reason. But that's not the point. >_>

Anyway. I love having a journal. I've got some really nice ones too. I always say to myself "Jessi, you're going to start writing daily in your journals again." But I forget. Sigh.

Now you're thinking "But you're writing on a blog, albeit irregularly, but isn't it the same?" No, you e-crackhead. It's not. You can't replace the sheer act of putting pen (or pencil, if you really like smudged fake lead and faster fading) to paper. You can't replace going back and looking at how your handwriting changes from day to day based on what you're feeling when you write. You can't replace the feel of paper under the side of your hand, the sound it makes as you form words. You can't write in your e-journal when the power is out and your laptop is dead. You can't see when you changed your mind about a sentence, a phrase, a word, and scratched out or erased it. There's just something about physically seeing chapters of your life in a bound stack of papers that makes you feel a sense of accomplishment. I can't really seem to get that out of a list of entry titles in a blog... e-journal... whatever you want to call it.

Plus, there's the added sense of security that comes with refraining from posting shit on the internet. Because well, we all know there's no such thing as privacy on the internet. What, someone told you different? They're an idiot, get new friends.

So, I propose to myself a new (late) years resolution: Daily journal entries. Even if they're one sentence. I could stand to write by hand more often anyway... you should see the notes I take during classes. My handwriting has gotten pretty shotty over the past three years, and it really wasn't that great to begin with.

Well hey, this blog has some use after all! Problem solver extraordinaire.

And no, you will not be seeing my hard copy journal entries. Dream on.